Oh! Why am I so confused?

"What to do? Where to go? Should I really do this? No... I should not! Well ........ maybe I should... Is it right???? yes.... no... yes...no......" Well there is no end to these questions! The result is that I end up saying " Oh! Why am I so confused?" Well, I am a confused person..... not just "a confused person" but totally meddlesome too. I donot easily get a solution to a problem and instead get my brain brimmed with doubts. Doubts! Doubts! Doubts! Oh! why don't these doubts just sweep of???? Being a class monitor, I am often trapped in the most complicated circumstances! And what are those???? You may wonder "What kind of circumstances?? Being a monitor is fun as you get to rule the class!!" Well ... the circumstances are as follows :-
1) I get absolutely blank when I am told to see the substitution register and check the substitution teacher(god knows! how to do it!). Well, this is a thing that all moniters have to do . Just enter the VP's room and check the register! But... all kinds of thoughts occur only in my mind. What if VP ma'm is present over there....... and she scolds me.....NO WAY! Thinking of these things gives a shiver down my spine.
2) Though I am good at English, I get all confused when a teacher asks me something and I stammer in an ungrammatical manner, adding "is" "was" "actually" "what happened was that" etc etc ... words. I mean, why do I do this only before teachers when I speak neatly before others. I am a genuine stammerer!!
3) I get confused a whole lot of people stare at me expecting something from me. And I should tell you that at that minute, my body temparature suddenly rises to 102 degree farenheit!! And my hands go icy cold!!
4) I get nervous by the feeling of being the laughing stock of the lot and sometimes I do!
I don't know why I am like this ! It isn't lack of confidence! I have confidence in my blood! Who has the confidence to shout at the top of her voice despite of being imitated by others???? I have!!!!!! (I am proud of it! Collar up!)
No one else (as far as I have seen) gets so much confused and nervous like me!! I must try to pick up some nice rolls of courage !!!! I will surely try to. But at present I must think of some positive points like for instance that I am different from others and that's what is called...... "SPECIAL"

Miracle Of Lord Siddhivinayaka

I am really surprised by my luck. I had never expected that I would top this year because of my high fever. I agree with mummy that this was fully a miracle done by Lord Siddhivinayaka. I prayed to him thoroughly and I have a great belief in him. He has done a great number of miracles that are hard to believe. Inspite of having so much fever, he gave me the strength to write my exams. I want to thank him for all the strength he gave me. When Lord Siddhivinayaka is with me, I am confident that he will help me to overcome all the obstacles in my path of life.

My favourite popstar - Miley Cyrus/Hannah Montana

Miley Cyrus/Hannah Montana is my favourite popstar. I am just mad over her. She's totally cool. On one side she is a perfectly normal person but on the other side she totally rocks. I know its confusing but let me explain:) She is a perfectly normal, 16 year old girl with brown hair who smiles, jokes and always makes friends. She lives with her dad, mom and her brothers and sisters. But there is a huge secret behind this that she is a stage-rocking popstar too. On the show, Hannah Montana, it is shown that Miley hides her secret, as she wants to lead a normal life and go to school and have friends. For this, she becomes Hannah Montana, a 16 year old popstar and wears a blonde wig so that no one recognises her. But in real life, we know this. She gives her stage shows, being popularly known as Hannah Montana. This show on Disney channel has rocked out and Miley is famous worldwide for her marvellous voice and for being such a nice actor. Now both Miley/ Hannah (who are the same) steal the audience's hearts wherever she goes. She experiences both normal life by going to school, studying and doing her homework and chilling out with friends whereas one side she leads a totally rich celebrity life giving concerts. Her albums are :Hannah Montana

:Hannah Montana 2

:Meet Miley Cyrus

:Breakout

These albums are about life and have influenced people worldwide. I am always found singing her songs and my room contains her poster. There are many popstars but Miley is totally different and special. This is why I like Miley Cyrus/Hannah Montana.

Exam Fever!!!!!

This title is perfectly true to this post as I really got highest fever(not to mention it as high fever as it was far worse than that). On the second day of my annual exams, on the eve of my hindi paper, I got severe fever and had to visit the hospital for a bi....g injection. It was a total horrid experience, not that I had to bear a biiig injection, only because I couldnot study as much as I had planned. This fever continued whole four days and my hopes for the rank are lost. I am lucky that I won't be here for the results. But I would certainly feel a bit uneasy as I've always worked hard for exams and this time I donot feel that my efforts were satisfactory. But, still hopes aren't lost. My exams went well and now I am enjoying my vacations. I am going to close this chapter and forget about it. Now its the time for masti and fun and lots of blogging and rocking.
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preparation!!!!!!!!!

Oh! These examinations are really a perfect bore. I am just waiting for them to complete. I just finished my confidence examinations taking a deep brath for the first time. But this wont last longer. The final exams are yet to come. OH god! What a headache. JUst after the annual exams, I'll watch Tv( iam forbidden to now). But i have self-control(my major problem) so I don't watch.